Many people know about the Vietnam War, but
when asked about the U.S. Secret War in Laos, not a single person I spoke with
had heard of it. Looking into my maternal grandfather’s journey from Laos to
the United States has given me an insight to what the secret war was to my
grandfather’s people, the Hmong.
As the Vietnam War erupted in 1961, the U.S.
military saw that communists had crossed over into Laos. Conflicts emerged in
Laos with the two political parties. The Royal Lao Government, the party in
power, allied themselves with Thailand and the U.S., while the Pathet Lao, the
communist Laos party joined North Vietnam. The main reason for the Secret War
in Laos was to support the Royal Lao Government against the Pathet Lao and to
stop communist movement along the Ho Chi Minh Trail. CIA paramilitary
specialist James W. (Bill) Lair recruited a young Hmong man by the name of Vang
Pao, who helped to recruit more than 60,000 Hmong fighters for the secret war.
“The Hmong were in charge of disrupting communist supply lines and rescuing
downed pilots.” (CIA Website)
My
grandfather was a happily married farmer in his twenties. His daily chores
included feeding the animals and tending the land. He did not know how to read
or write. In fact, only a handful of men in the village were educated. One day,
as he was tending to his vegetables, soldiers came into their
little village and demanded that all able males, young and old, be brought to the town meeting. The men were herded into the town center. The commanding officer told the villagers about the secret war and an order was issued for one male from
each family to join the military. The consequence of disobeying this order was
an immediate public execution.
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As the eldest son, my grandfather was forced
to join the military. When I asked him to tell me about those early days, my
grandfather got very quiet; the memories were too painful. After a few seconds,
he began his tale of bravery and sacrifice. He remembers that first day when he
along with other terrified farmers lined up for their first training. Someone had
shoved a gun into his arms, expecting him to know what to do with it. Gripping the foreign weapon tightly, sweats running down his face, he looked right to left down the line, and he saw that everyone had been handed a gun. Some people instinctively knew what to
do. Most, like my grandfather had no clue. It took him almost a whole week to hold
the gun properly. He sounded so sad as he remembers that an unfortunate friend was not so lucky and died when his gun
fell of his shoulder and shot him. When my grandfather integrated into the war
zone, he was still not prepared. Under gun fire from the enemy, he didn’t know
where to shoot. He remembers soldiers yelling for everyone to “shoot and run
straight ahead” so that’s what he did. To this day, he still does not know if
he actually killed anyone because all he could remember was running and
shooting aimlessly.
Eventually, in 1975, the U.S. removed its
troops and all support from South Vietnam, ending the Vietnam War, and
consequently ending the Secret War. Without the military weapons and financial
support, the Royal Lao Government was defeated and the Pathet Lao communists
took over Laos. After the U.S. withdrawal, the Hmong were left behind and now
faced persecution from the Pathet Lao communist party. Abandoned by their U.S.
allies, the Hmong fled to Thailand for refuge.
It was the year 1976, and most of the
military families had fled to Thailand for protection. My grandfather has
finally convinced his father to make the secret journey to Thailand. First, my
grandfather met with a group of rogue fishermen, who charged him an
outrageous fee for agreeing to secretly sneak the family across the Mekong River to the Thai side. After securing passage, my grandfather came to inform
his family of the plan. No one besides his immediate family knew of the plan
and everyone continues to act as normal as possible. Late into the night when
everyone has fallen asleep, my grandfather gathered his family together and
quietly snuck out the village, leaving his home and his possessions behind. The
only items he brought with him were his clothes and what money he has left. The
family was ordered to remain as silent as possible. Any noise made could
attract the communist soldiers patrolling the area. Opium was given to the children to keep them sleepy and soundless. It took the family the
entire night to reach their destination. The fishermen quickly steered everyone
into the boat and without a word, navigated them to the Thailand shore. Once
they reached the shore, Thai soldiers took them to the refugee camps.
My great grandparents, my grandparents along with their two children (my mother and uncle) lived in the Thai refugee camp Ban Vinai for about three years. The refugee
camp was not an ideal living situation. My grandfather recalls all the
restrictions imposed on them. They could not venture out the camp after a
certain time. They did not have land of their own. They did not speak the Thai
language because the older people were not given an education. The only available
jobs were fruit picking for Thai farmers who would come to bus anyone
willing to go work in the field for pennies a day. There really wasn’t any
choice but to work this way.
Another decision that my grandfather made for
the family was his decision to immigrate to the U.S.. Many of his friends and
family had already made the move to the U.S. under the Indochina Migration and
Refugee Assistance Act (passed on May 23, 1975). In 1979, my grandfather made his
way to the line of the immigration center and put his name on the list. Within
a few days, the family was called in for an interview. Two weeks later, they
were called to board the bus to Bangkok, Thailand. Again, they left everything
behind. The only belongings they were allowed to bring were their clothes and
whatever they were able to sneak through, like their jewelries and traditional
keepsakes. The family was quarantined in Bangkok for a week before they made
their first airplane ride to the U.S..
Frightened and exhausted, the family finally arrived in San Diego, California
on November 18, 1979. Fortunately, there were many other Hmong arriving in San
Diego at the same time so my grandfather had people that he knew in
this foreign land. The family were placed in a three bedroom townhouse.
Their social worker quickly enrolled my grandparents into adult school to learn
English. My grandfather sounded more cheerful as he recalls those early days in San Diego. He enjoyed going to school to learn the English language and culture. Finally, he knows the meaning of "freedom." After three years on government assistance, my grandparents decided to
go to work. They had learned enough English to communicate with other people. My grandfather
took a job as a janitor at a golf club while my grandmother worked as a
seamstress in a garment shop. They have lived here in the U.S. for over 30 years
and are now retired. There were many struggles here, with a new language, a new
culture and learning to raise his children differently than how he was raised;
but overall this is the land of freedom that he always dreamed about and he is
living contently. Perhaps all his struggles in Laos and Thailand pushed him to
adapt quickly in America, or it could be his natural courage that helped him to stand up proudly against
all odds that allowed him to accept changes so easily.
After listening to my grandfather’s story, I
am more driven to learn about my culture. Even though learning the Hmong
language and culture is a curriculum my mother has included in my studies, I
realized I was learning autonomously without much content. However, my
grandfather has given me a tangible experience to relate to what I have learned. At
home, we still practice many traditions like spirit calling ceremonies, big
birthday celebrations, and New Year gatherings. My mother still makes
traditional food like bitter melon and pork, pork and green vegetable soup, and
boiled chicken and herbs soup. My favorite dish is the pork and green vegetable
soup.
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| Hmong Tapestry |
I am proud to admit that I know how to speak the
Hmong language. It comes from strong and brave roots. I will continue the
tradition of speaking Hmong and keeping the traditions that my parents had
instilled in me. My children will know where their ancestors come from and
hopefully will be as proud as I am of it. Before my grandfather and I ended our conversation, he said to me “know where you come from, be proud of it; that is the
one thing that no one can take away; live knowing you will always answer
to someone; and be happy.” These are the words of a man who had braved through
obstacles of three countries. His words are golden.